Nate had just come from uber LV punk combo Boba Fett Youth. Rob the drummer for PTW was also a fill in drummer for the last stint of BFY’s last tour. Judd the bass player was in other bands previous to PTW but I couldn’t say much about him as he never seemed to say much himself.
It's really fucking hard to get people to give a shit about your band. Over the next few months we slowly made some in roads. We recorded the demo. We practiced 3 times a week. We got better. We started getting noticed. But internally things got weird. We all got along on the surface but when we would talk about what the band's direction there were disagreements that kinda blindsided me.
There were arguments about my poetry, about my shaking hands with the audience, about my abilities as a singer. There were veiled threats about finding a new singer. There was pressure to write lyrics for every song. Even if some songs worked better as instrumentals (Giant Slug). In short there was a line going up between those who made the music, namely Nate, and the one guy who stepped in to take the music somewhere else once the music had been written. Me.
Nate wrote all the music and the band was obviously his. No one else wrote the music although we all collaborated. The band would always see me as the new guy. Not just the new guy but perhaps the least important member of the band? That was certainly how I was treated. Even though outside of actually making the music I was responsible for many things including opening myself up to the world through my lyrics, booking every show, getting money from outside the band to press a record, handling the creation of the record... I'm looking like an asshole to beat this into the ground. As you can see things would eventually come to a head and since I was the vociferous one with a microphone it had to come from my big mouth.
It all rose to the surface. I would always talk at length on stage. If it wasn't poetry it was describing the context of songs. I never censored myself. That night I had a grudge. I got on the microphone and bad mouthed another local band. Something we all agreed I’d never do. I did that intentionally to piss the guys off. Plus I just hated that other local group. I bad mouthed Star Wars. Which was directed with venom to Nate who considered Star Wars a religion. I talked an incredible amount of shit in front of dozens of people. I couldn't have been more foul, ignorant, or disrespectful.
Somehow weeks later we got back together. I don't remember the exact words that were said but staying true to the disfunction I assumed all blame. How could I not? I shouldn't have exploded in front of a crowd. But my arguments were pointless against a group who could never validate my point of view. I was the outsider. And when I think about it now I say perhaps that was the only way for me to be heard within the group?
With so much work invested we all felt it was wrong to throw it away. Just like I'd felt after the first round of arguments developed. But it was an uneasy truce that wouldn't continue for long.
I never tried to make politics a centerpiece to PTW although it's easy to see an agenda with a song like Outside of Town. But who in their right mind thinks a Nuclear Waster Repository at Yucca Mountain is a good idea? Only a politician I guess.
Even though it's a bit heavy handed Communication Is a Weapon seems more philosphical to me rather than being overtly political. But what's the difference anyway? All these words stem from personal experience which I think make them more real.
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1. It Is To Laugh
2. This Is It! (The Song That Should Have Changed the World)
4. I Haven't Got the Courage To Care
5. If Only...
6. Communication Is A Weapon
7. You (Whoever That May Be)
8. Outside of Town
9. interlude #2
10. Kevin Kidd
11. Ultimately It's All About Fucking
13. Giant Slug
The jpeg of the lyrics posted above isn't the best quality. That's why I'm hoping you'll download the lyric sheet and give it a closer inspection. The files are rather big. If you know of a way to shrink these files which will still make them readable please let me know. I also have a Photoshop file of the lyrics if you have a way of reducing their size while maintaining readable quality. Thanks for reading.